Magical Childhood

Today I was perusing Pinterest. Amongst the crochet, recipes, and organization pins, I saw a pin with the title “How to Make Losing Baby Teeth More Magical”. Of course, it was accompanied by the sweet face of a little girl pointing at her 1st lost tooth.

My first thought…

Oh my gosh!!! How many moments do I need to make magical for each of my kids!?!? 

One more milestone to make me feel like a slacker. Yeah… I got my oldest a little pillow that she can put her tooth in for the tooth fairy to find. I didn’t sprinkle special dust, or write a little note, or make some teeny footprints to show the fairy had come. She is lucky I remembered to put money in the pillow pocket in exchange for her tooth. That is about as much as I can handle. My 2nd and 3rd will be lucky if they even see any cash (because I know me).
Magical moments will happen in my children’s lives. But they aren’t going to have a Pinterest Prefect childhood. I’ll have to work on not feeling guilty about it.


Why blasphemous?

Motherhood is so often stated as being “sacred”. Well, sometimes motherhood doesn’t feel like a sacred state of being. Most of the time being a parent is just hard. How often does one think, “I love you, but I don’t like you” when dealing with their kids. (Actually, in those moments I really don’t feel love for them at all. It’s the next moment that I remember that I would be a disaster if something happened to one of them.)

This morning, after being woken up several times during the night from the hacking coughs of my kids from opposite¬†corners of the house, I was thrilled¬†to be able to leave for work. As I kissed my husband (SAHD) at the door, he said, “I wish I were you today.” I couldn’t help but smile and giggle a little in giddiness as I walked toward my car. I don’t have to listen to the coughing, whining, and screaming today. I don’t have to make everyone lunch, deal with fighting, or change a single diaper!

I didn’t have to come in to work today. I could have worked from home, as I do most days. But I DIDN’T! (Insert devilish smile here.)

In just a few hours, I will have to leave a little early to go to my daughters “Meet the Teacher” at her school. But until then, I am going to enjoy my child-free hours.

Motherhood really doesn’t feel sacred all that much. Sometimes it can actually feel hellish. But… when your kid learns something new and is so excited… Or when your toddler wants to snuggle up and put his face in your neck… It can be heavenly.